If I Could Just

If I could just feel it.

If I could just be that.

If I could just go there.

If I could just change it.

If I could just fix it.

If I could just make it go away.

Always waiting for something, always looking for something, always asking for something, aren’t we? And yet the secret is this, we find time and time again: the grass isn’t greener on the other side.

Yes, you heard me, it’s not. I know this, and deep down, so do you.

If you got that thing you’ve always wanted and if you were that person you’ve always thought you should be there would still be a hole because you are not perfect, neither am I, and we aren’t promised tomorrow. These longings that we have ultimately meet their end in a land that we have yet glimpsed.

Heaven is the other side… and there, we will find our green grass and so much more.

Until then, I don’t have much of a solution for the “If I could just” syndrome. All I can say is that He is enough, and I am enough because He is in me. You are enough because He is in you.

Being consumed with what we think life should be or could be can be crippling… so crippling that it can prevent us from actually living. I encourage you to simply trust God with yourself and your life. Live in His presence today, not in your worries, concerns, and desires.

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“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

Blank Pages and Fear

…The first sentence is always the hardest.

Type, erase, re-type…

Stare.

A blank page is kind of like standing on the edge of a cliff (for lack of better dramatic effect). There’s all of the potential in the world and, yet, it can be paralyzing.

…but don’t you know the world is your oyster?

And this page is your land?

The first step is always the hardest,                                          
but first steps become easier as you take them.

I want to say that when it comes to fear, in all its variations, names, and volumes, we have two options: become its victim or make it ours. If we bow to fear, we risk paralyzation in the very moments that we were destined to walk forward into.

Today, we all have our fear [of the unknown, of missing the mark, of hurt, of rejection], but love will take you to the places that fear longs to keep you from if you’ll choose it [Him].

There’s a whole lot that could go wrong with a blank page, but there’s also a whole lot that could go right.

Go for it.

2 Timothy 1:7

1 John 4:18